On my way home
The full moon drew me
round the bend of the waterfront
Each step an affirmation
taking my self back
to family and food
an hour and a half’s walk away
This time I stop to sit at Hobson Bay’s steps
by the Marina’s cradling arms
Just to coalesce
undress my resentment and
throw each pocket-stored grievance out to sea
Wished on a plane in Okahu Bay
‘A speedy recovery for my father and I’
Said I’d wait till it disappeared from the sky.
But I got tired.
Kept walking and lost it behind Bastion Point’s dark shoulder
Tamaki Beach reminded me
Of the last time I saw Liz.
before her passion took her
Too high in dense mountain bush
Must’ve been all of twenty then
Would’ve had a dozen more years here
Had she not
fallen
Bitterly cold August air
can’t be helping heal
this
tenacious laryngitis
trying to tell me
what not to say
On my way
home
Caitlin Smith